Study week

Study week is meant for study, but the problem is: I'm at home and get distracted easily, how to study? D:

The first paper is the toughest among all. International Finance we are good friend alright? :)

          Dear God please grant me wisdom to understand what is spot market, future market, forward market, bid-ask rate, etc. Bla bla :')

Reluctant

God is faithful and He will always be. 

This sem is going to come to an end, which indirectly means I'm entering 4th year soon- leaving campus and step into realistic world, soon :/ 

This is not the saddest part, knowing your batch mates who used to serve and journey with you together in cf are leaving soon is more tearing.
And, we can't graduate together, taking pictures with square hats and robes together 

Despite the sadness I have, I wanna thank God for placing me here-USM instead of other campus.

Because I know He placed me here for a purpose, and I still remember. I have one more year to work hard for. 

I'm here to share His love to my dad, aunties and non believer friends. I know I've been busy and stop doing it for some time. Since I have stepped out from the excoship, I shall continue what God has in store for me previously and probably in coming days.

You know that

when he really appreciate something that you spent hours to make for him,
it is indescribable!



Today's sermon was a reminder for me:
We are God's worshipper not consumer.
What's the difference between these two?
Worshipper is walk the talk, live out a Christ-like manner,
but consumer is want and demand from God, praise Him for His provisions.
It is not wrong to give thanks for the needs and dreams that have been fulfilled, it is the intentions that reflects who we are and how we portray God.
We should remember His salvation and pass the message around, by words plus actions.

#TheIndianUncleIMetTodayIsKind

Trust in Him not in him

Jesus, Jesus, how I trust Him!
How I’ve proved Him o’er and o’er;
Jesus, Jesus, precious Jesus!
Oh, for grace to trust Him more!

Conflict, cornflake

Conflict is something we can't predict and avoid. It is tiring, but through it you can know more about yourself and another person.

A conflict that filled with love, hurtful words, sense of guilt, timidness. We often seek for peace, even the hope of the world is to live together peacefully.I really don't like conflict because I witnessed it lots during my childhood time. And when myself is experiencing conflict, I tend to take a step back, grab the faults as they were my mistakes to make sure no war to be continued or happened again. I was wrong.

I want to solve it quick, but it's just for temporary used. It's important that both sides should listen to one another before any assumption is made. Not to judge him or her before they make their further explaination.

Patient is the key to extinguish burning coals. 

The more you listen, the more you can understand the feelings deep inside and their actual thoughts. We don't want to lose a relationship with worthless mouth fight, we try to redeem and make it works, if we really care for it. 

I believe every normal couple fights if they truly love each other. Embrace their weaknesses for who they are and grow together in Him. We hardly change by ourselves, but by His help and our willingness, nothing is impossible. :)

Mature?

When will you grown up to be a mature person? Mature in thinking, in doing has become so important in dealing with people, especially in a relationship. You are not a little kid to be pampered but a helper to give support and help each other grow towards Christ-likeness. 

You'll find secure in God and not to seek it from man. You trust that person because you put trust in God. Anyhow it takes time when you had past experiences that made you emotionally weaker.

You just have to try and try and try

What's next? Get back to His arm, tell Him that you need Him, wait upon Him to speak to you. 

We don't simply fall in love, we step into it. As a Christian, we pray and search for that person. We make friends and everything begins from there. You think far until marriage, not just for the sake of someone to be with you or to occupy your empty schedule.
You seek for His guidance and you ask your parents. You are not alone in this journey.

And you will be blessed by many, on the day you both stand before the podium, where the vow is made.

Today's get

Finally I got to watch Fast 7 with Mr HP! It's a good movie with awesome effects but a bit illogical for few parts. Overall, good.

Penang has been so hot recently, I guess God heard our complaints and mumbles so He gives us sky water to nourish the dry land and our dry souls :P

Going to finished my 3rd journal and I've grab my 4th one to encourage/ force myself to do quiet time more regularly. Hehe :)



Btw, I've bought a new bible from Popular using BB1M voucher since I couldn't buy my sharpieee, huhu.

Easter Dayyy!

I've attended the Easter Conference held by BRGH for the passed 3 consecutive days.
It was fruitful of knowing more about Jesus' crucifixion and His resurrection.
The fellowship with brothers and sisters in Christ was good and fun too,
the not-so-good part was forgot to take a picture as a memory to keep.

#JesusDiedAndRoseAgain #ForYouAndMe #ToDoTheFather'sWill #HisAgapeLove

Zero contact

I really cherish my friends who always stand by me when I need them.
Because they know it's not easy for both of us to be together and now, something has changed.
But I'm still trusting God, knowing He is in control of all of these.
This song suddenly popped out in my mind,
which I've been scratching my head to figure out for the past few days:
You are my freedom, Jesus You're the reason, I'm kneeling again at Your throne,
where would I be without You, here in my life, here in my life.

It's a choice

The love that Christ commands us to demonstrate is not based on a sweet emotion,
but on an often difficult choice to put aside our own feelings and do what is best for someone else even when they don't deserve it.
Truly all is by the grace of God.

What's wrong with me?

I pray that Father Your love fills me and not seeking it from humankind.

Because ONLY YOU can satisfy our thirsty souls.

Amen.

Will I be contented if I'm single?

I came across to this article blog-ed by Bethany Baird titled:
"Are you willing to give up the guy?"

It sounds like a challenge to me and I pondered about it. Am I willing to give up the guy if it's God's will and not mine? What if I'm still loving him?

I had a failed relationship before and it was heart wrenching. It's not easy to end it when you're the one that keep on giving yet receive nothing. But now I thanks God because the act of letting go had trade a better me in return.

In short,

God's love never fails.

I'm feeling 22!

Before stepping into the year of 2015, just 11 days before,

I celebrated my birthday!

Happiness, regretfulness, disappointments all struck me on this 20th of December.
Because of different expectations we had and my own selfishness, I just hurt the one I love.

People often say we don't know the true stories behind every pictures. Yea, indeed.
Like those sweet couple photos exposing in social media.
Who knows what actually happened before or after that.
Love, is not that easy when you know it's something worth fighting for and even waiting.
But, through this special day of mine, I see His better plan.
He drew me back to His arms again calmly, gently..
Though I couldn't listen to His voice, but I know He's there for me.

He brought really awesome friends into my life,
Who will cares for you and gives you physically, mentally and spiritually supports.
All the efforts they put triggered my tear gland to function.

To conclude this in a more cheerful way, I want to thanks God for bringing him into my life.
Thanks for not giving up on me and yet bring me closer to Him :P
And also not to forget, I've received the...
#BestBirthdayGiftEver <3

Welcoming the frehmen

Okay, I'm trying to admit that I'm getting elder and entering Juniors' year

Oh, how time shoots like how the light travel per second.

I still remember when I was in my first year,

with matric card hanging around my neck

with a fresh look that people can recognised,

being pampered by the seniors with care and love.

I still remember the purpose of staying in Penang and in USM.

There were many times I tend to forget my part as His ambassador,

but He doesn't failed to remind me and show me His patience and kindness

- through the things happened, through the people around me.

Busyness is not an excuse to forget reading the Bible,

because it's important to grab and chew His words everyday. =)

Teach me, Lord, the way of your decrees,

    that I may follow it to the end.
34 Give me understanding, so that I may keep your law
    and obey it with all my heart.
35 Direct me in the path of your commands,
    for there I find delight.
36 Turn my heart toward your statutes
    and not toward selfish gain.
37 Turn my eyes away from worthless things;
    preserve my life according to your word.
38 Fulfill your promise to your servant,
    so that you may be feared.
39 Take away the disgrace I dread,
    for your laws are good.
40 How I long for your precepts!
    In your righteousness preserve my life.

                                                                                                                     Psalm 119: 33-40

After one year

Heavenly Father, thank you for Your wonderful love. Words could not express them all, because what You deserve are much more than these.

So a year has passed, I still remember last year- 27 June 2013. I have a pledge with You, which is to remain single for one year. After the pain I gained, the hurt that I had, a good friend of mine encouraged me to start this.

Indeed, it helped me to experience more about who God is. My knowing about Him before this, is

the Creator, the loving Father, the Provisions, the Refuge

I had experienced Him so much through serving in PKA (Persaudaraan Kristian Agape), which is my school's Christian Fellowship.

Agape, sacrificial love, unconditional love, selfless love.

The 2 greatest commandments: 

-Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your strength and with all your mind

-Love your neighbour as yourself.

God reminded me what should I do throughout this one year, and even after the pledge, in my whole life.

I am so so much blessed by countless notes & encouraging words, little gifts from people and His presence did comfort me most of the time. Not to forget, the most important thing is reading His precious words, the treasure that I want to discover more and more everyday.

Lord, thank you for the tears & laughters moments, loving and unlovable people. Though there are many times I can't comprehend or understand Your will behind these.

You said,

"I AM who I AM" 

You are God alone, no matter what, I'll still trust in You. =)

Beautiful creations

Had a great dinner with PKA's family in Khunthai yesterday.

Before the dishes were served,

I went to the beach and amazed by the sunset scenery.

So I took the portrait down and saved it in my phone.

His hands made things perfectly, thank you Father! :D

"I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; 

your works are wonderful, I know that full well." 

-Psalm 139:14-

It's 2014!

Alright, it's time to resume back to my blog again.
Many things happened in 2013-
Ups & Downs
but,
I thanks God for letting these happened to me,
because everything is under His control,
what shall I fear?

And so,
Here comes 2014,
No matter what will happen,
I'll put my trust in Him.
He's really my provision & protection!
I'm so amazed by the works & miracles that He'd done.
Words are too limited to conclude His goodness & wonderfulness.

In this year, I hope that I can achieve the things that I've promised,
and to know more about people around me.
Not just saying hi-bye, but will starts to understand their lives,
to listen to their life stories. =)

Somehow God is so lovely,
Since I've made the covenant with Him
and prayed to Him that I've prepared to be single (not double) :P
but, thing not really goes how it should goes
in another way though, hmm~
I guess it's a good time for me to prepare,
and to walk with Him in this journey of FAITH!

Sufficient

To live in this world,

to survive,

Money, seems to be so important but it wasn't everything.

Indeed,

Not everyone cares about how much could they spend.

But, what should they spend of. Right?

For me,

It's important when it comes to a situation-

paying bills, donations, tithes...

But I really thank you Lord,

for His provision is more than my imagination.

Yup, His name is Jehovah Jireh! =D

A simple drawing

I've received a letter today from my little friend.

A letter included a paper of her drawing.

A love in a heart, a mug with drinks, a girl and a house? (still guessing)

Altough it's simple but I feel touch when I receive it.

Sometimes, just a small little action

could brings out a huge and strong impact to others.

Never doubt it.

A bible verse that encouraged me today,

Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up. Therefore, as we have opportunity, let us do good to all people, especially to those who belong to the family of believers. 

-Galatians 6: 9,10-

Have a good day, dear readers ;D

Maybe?

Maybe it's the time that I should resume my habit of writing blog?
Yes, I gonna reborn my blog, eheee~

Day by day, month by month, year by year,
Wow, time flies.
My blog has been sleeping for one year!
Oopss.. I think I'm doing quite busy before entering Uni?
Have to get everything settle down,
resignation of job, Uni registration, attending numerous farewells...
bla bla bla..

Thank you Lord,
that He keep me staying in my lovely island.
Although I wanna escape from my comfort zone,
but, He planned a better plan for me!

First of all,
I have my oh-so-BLUR days spent in my first sem,
less socialise with others (new friends)
and being MIA (missing in action) in PKA
but my results were so far so good,aha!

After the Getting into Gear Camp,
I get to know more Christian friends
who makes me feel so warm =)
Followed by the reach out project,
we had our visit to Penang Cheshire Home.
I'd spent an awesome day with the special people =D
Few times of farewell meeting & mime practice,
which get me & PKA-ian closer...

I'm so glad that He placed me in USM
to learn and gain more from others experiences,
and the testimonies they've shared to me.
We could encourage one and another with God's word,
having many times of makan and outings,
laugh and even crazy together..heee

I do enjoy my life now and looking forward for the uncertain future.
Because He holds my future!
#GBU